Mommy, You'll be OK

Those sweet words were said by Olivia today just when I needed them.

The past 2 weeks have been full of ups and downs.  I have shared some of what I have been going through with a few people.  It is painful at times to not share with everyone, but I almost didn't have enough information to share.  But let me tell you that I am one tough chick- calm, cool collected on the outside but a puddle of mush on the inside.  I am taking each day moment by moment.

But here is what has been going on.  I found out I was pregnant last week...wahoo so exciting. I just kept waiting and waiting and finally decided to take a test.  Then almost as magical as the test flashed pregnant, I started spotting....talk about the total opposite emotion.  Called the doctor immediately and they had me in for blood-work the next day. The spotting continued, went away, continued...got the test results and my levels were not high enough so I had to go and have more blood drawn.  As the weekend progressed I was feeling worse and worse and the spotting turned to bleeding.  After speaking with my doctor Sunday morning and her getting my test results it was confirmed that I was having some form of miscarriage- mostly a chemical pregnancy.  So the plan was to come in for more blood-work but I just felt like something was wrong...

Went in today for more blood-work, they need to make sure the levels go back to zero.  But I called earlier in the week and said there is something not right and I wanted an ultrasound.  Well I was somewhat right...and even today I didn't feel well. So what did they find...a cyst on the left ovary...which was concerning because they couldn't tell if it was a regular cyst or possibly an ectopic pregnancy- won't know about that until I get my blood test results back to see if they are going back to zero.  Then the doctor noticed the cyst and was talking about PCOS...that can't be confirmed until I have the PCOS test done in probably a month.  So right now I am just not a happy camper...lots of unknowns at the moment.  But my doctor has been wonderful as always and I really appreciate that.  She has gone above and beyond her duties as a doctor. 

So right now all I know is that I am ok because Olivia said so and I am sticking with that.  I am beyond blessed with all that I have at the moment. I have prayed a whole lot about this and I know that God has plans for us. 

Good and Bad Day all in One?

It was a good and bad day all in one.  Woke Olivia up for Susan's today and it was the 1st time she didn't pop right out of her bed.  Right then I knew it was going to be a rough morning.  She didn't want to eat  her breakfast but then ended up eating a piece of toast on the way to Susan's house in the car.  She literally shoved me out the door at Susan's! It does make me feel good to leave her there and Olivia being so happy when I leave.  She also had NO accidents at Susan's...!! Then she fell asleep on the way home which made her crabby when we got home.  Then we had the whole power struggle over the potty but then she pooped....I think that was the problem.  Then napped and was crabby after her nap and didn't want to go to Kindermusik.  I finally just put her in the car and by the time we got there she was fine.  Then we ended up having a good night.  She peed on the potty and even told me she needed to pee on the potty!! So that made the night good!!

Here is some artwork that Olivia has done...

Meeting Baby Camila

Today after Gymboree Lauren and I stopped at Lily's house to visit and meet baby Camila.  She is absolutely precious and adorable.  She slept the entire time we were there.  It was great hold her and marvel at her!  Olivia was really good with her.  I told her that she could touch her feet.  Olivia said she was a good baby! We got home late...almost 9 o'clock because on the way home Olivia had to go potty...thankfully I knew of a Publix somewhat close to where we were so we stopped there.  So the 20 minutes ride took forever! Finally she is snoozing in her bed!

Last night we were up for a bit with Olivia.  She decided at 12:06 a.m. that it was time to get up and play.  I tried laying in her bed to get her to go to sleep.  Instead she wanted to play with my hair and shirt.  Finally around 2 a.m. she went to sleep....we are tired today...as you can tell in the picture...I am tired!

Fishing with Daddy

I had a long day at work today, so Olivia and daddy had fun fishing!! She is getting so good at reeling in her fish!

Olivia the singer

Finally caught Olivia singing tonight.  I had to give her some help.

Owls, Owls, everywhere!

Big girl bed take #2...

Brendon worked really hard today and drilled some new holes and finally we have a big girl bed! I have to take down some of the old bedding stuff still...will do that later.  Olivia was so excited about her bed!

Also we finished her bathroom a few weeks ago...

Happy Birthday Emma and the Bed Disaster

Yesterday we were very blessed to celebrate Emma's 2nd birthday! We had such a great time with our friends and the weather was perfect.  We even got to play outside on Emma's new swing set!

 

Olivia helped daddy make dinner.  

 

Then we tried to make Olivia's crib set up as a full bed.  Long story short- I didn't buy the rails when I bought the crib (mistake #1), then after calling the company I forgot to order them (mistake #2), then JcPenny let me order the rails and then come to find out they were discontinued (mistake #3) and then JcPenny told me to order these metal rails and they will fit (mistake #4).  They didn't fit...and that is why we couldn't get it together last night....