Christmas Eve December 20
6 years ago
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Super Smiley
Today was a super smiley day in the bouncy seat! Of course again we got up early. So early we could watch the beginning of the Tour de France. Too bad there is no more Lance Armstrong.
Friday, July 1, 2011
Bad Hair Day
Olivia had a bad hair day today. I am not sure what happened in her sleep last night but she looked like a wild woman when she woke up. She woke up VERY early at 7:30 a.m. but didn't want to eat. She just wanted to play. I was not in the mood to play at that time so I put her in the swing and she was super happy and smiley. I like when she wakes up that way but maybe she can sleep in a little later and do it.
A close up of the madness!
The bad hair...kind of looks like a mohawk.
A close up of the madness!
Thursday, June 30, 2011
14 Weeks Old
Holy cow time flies! Olivia is 14 weeks old. At her checkup on Monday she weighed 12 pounds and 5 ounces. We can't wait to see how much she weighs at her 4 month appointment. We are hoping for 14 pounds! She gained 2 pounds since her 2 month appointment to when we took her last week to the doctor which was around being 3 months old.
You almost got me again! This is before nap time and she wasn't quite in the mood.
Mommy you almost caught me on camera smiling!
You almost got me again! This is before nap time and she wasn't quite in the mood.
Olivia's hair bow holder! Too cute!! Thank you to La Dee Dah Art. You can check out her shop on etsy. Click on the link...
http://www.etsy.com/shop/ladeedahart?ref=pr_shop_more
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
I am growing!
Here are some pictures of Olivia today. I found out today that whenever I take out the camera she stops smiling. I think she figured out what the camera does. But she has been doing a TON of smiling. I know it looks like she is frowning a lot in the pictures but she is not a frowny baby!! It is just that it is so hard to get that smile on camera. It happens so quick!
Stretching out on my mat. My sleeper makes me look SO LONG!!
Finally caught her on camera. I don't know how her neck doesn't hurt but she has figured out how to roll on her side and sleep. This was afternoon nap that I finally got her on camera.
Lounging in my bouncy seat!
Stretching out on my mat. My sleeper makes me look SO LONG!!
Finally caught her on camera. I don't know how her neck doesn't hurt but she has figured out how to roll on her side and sleep. This was afternoon nap that I finally got her on camera.
Hope...and a Leap of Faith... One Year Later
This is for my friends that have gone through a similar situation or are going through it right now. This has taken a lot of thought and time to write and it is for you. I rarely write something so personal but I know it hits close to home for many of you.
As I was thinking back to last summer- yes all the fun times that we are missing out on a little bit this year...it was this time last year that we were hoping and taking a leap of faith with our fertility. Fertility and Infertility whatever you want to call it, it is all the same wrapped up in a box most of the time without a bow.
It is a painful secret that some of us keep inside. Many of us don't like to talk about it because a lot of people don't understand and feel sorry for you OR they just don't know what to say back except for, "Keep trying, it will happen one day." You can only hear that so many times and you are over it. It is almost like you wear a scarlet letter because you are having difficulty getting pregnant. At times you feel like an outsider to your friends that have children. It can be really lonely at times. It also can be awkward. I hated when people asked, "When are you having children?" You just don't know what to say because you just don't feel like explaining everything!
It has become a more popular issue lately in my circle of friends. At times I think it is odd that I know so many people that are going through or went through infertility/fertility treatments. Is it something in the water? Something that we were exposed to when we were children? Who knows.... but it is hard to explain. But I am glad my friends have shared their story and we have been there for each other in the hardest moments of hearing, "Your not pregnant," to the moments of sharing our happiness about success- even if it was a little success such as having normal results of a test.
Last year we were footsteps from the door of the fertility clinic to do IVF (In vitro fertilization). My doctor at the time said we will try 2 more things before I send you over there. #1 Have a Hystosonogram. At this point I had every other test in the world from a Hysterosalpingogram and every blood test in the world. I thought piece of cake. I am sure they will tell me I am normal once again- and they did. No surprise there. #2 He said let's try 3 rounds of Clomid. After talking with Brendon we thought that was our best next option and last option before going to the fertility clinic. So there we went with a little hope and a leap of faith into this little white pill. I decided to give up some things and see if that was part of the problem. I gave up running, caffeine, and tried to only eat organic fruits and veggies. I am not sure if giving up any of those things caused anything else to happen but you just never know. And what do you know...that first round worked....hence Olivia. We did not expect it at all and even at that point I felt like giving up. I became ok at some point with not having children because I was satisfied with my life and what we had been blessed with. Did I deep down give up? Absolutely not but I didn't want my inability to get pregnant to interfere with my life and went on living day in and day out.
But my point being it is a journey and sometimes a painful one. Sometimes you feel people don't understand what you are going through. It is not only a mental game but a physical one. The poking and prodding is bad enough but it is the mental part that really beats you up. You are thinking all the time about- Am I pregnant? Why is that person so lucky? What is wrong with me? Why can't I just have a baby? At times you feel like a failure and nothing people can do or say will make the situation any better. It is exhausting and a lot of time you don't want to talk about it because talking to one more person makes one more person who is hoping that something will happen for you.
It is that hope and leap of faith that kept us going. Even in the darkest hours and the saddest moments that hope is what kept us going. It is when people think having a baby is so easy- well for some of us it is not. I have learned a lot these past few years. I have learned how to be strong and put on a brave face when you are crumbling inside. I have learned that sometimes when you lose your faith that sometimes a light will shine so you can find it. Most of all I have learned patience. I patiently waited for something good to happen. God can only give you so much to burden at a time and I knew he had a plan for us.
To my friends who have opened up and shared with me over the past few years I thank you. I thank you for being there to listen and share our stories. I feel blessed to help others that are still patiently waiting for something to happen. But most of all this is to help others who are struggling with this inside and give you a little hope that if you take a leap of faith something will happen.
*** Tissue Warning*** You may or may not need one
As I was thinking back to last summer- yes all the fun times that we are missing out on a little bit this year...it was this time last year that we were hoping and taking a leap of faith with our fertility. Fertility and Infertility whatever you want to call it, it is all the same wrapped up in a box most of the time without a bow.
It is a painful secret that some of us keep inside. Many of us don't like to talk about it because a lot of people don't understand and feel sorry for you OR they just don't know what to say back except for, "Keep trying, it will happen one day." You can only hear that so many times and you are over it. It is almost like you wear a scarlet letter because you are having difficulty getting pregnant. At times you feel like an outsider to your friends that have children. It can be really lonely at times. It also can be awkward. I hated when people asked, "When are you having children?" You just don't know what to say because you just don't feel like explaining everything!
It has become a more popular issue lately in my circle of friends. At times I think it is odd that I know so many people that are going through or went through infertility/fertility treatments. Is it something in the water? Something that we were exposed to when we were children? Who knows.... but it is hard to explain. But I am glad my friends have shared their story and we have been there for each other in the hardest moments of hearing, "Your not pregnant," to the moments of sharing our happiness about success- even if it was a little success such as having normal results of a test.
Last year we were footsteps from the door of the fertility clinic to do IVF (In vitro fertilization). My doctor at the time said we will try 2 more things before I send you over there. #1 Have a Hystosonogram. At this point I had every other test in the world from a Hysterosalpingogram and every blood test in the world. I thought piece of cake. I am sure they will tell me I am normal once again- and they did. No surprise there. #2 He said let's try 3 rounds of Clomid. After talking with Brendon we thought that was our best next option and last option before going to the fertility clinic. So there we went with a little hope and a leap of faith into this little white pill. I decided to give up some things and see if that was part of the problem. I gave up running, caffeine, and tried to only eat organic fruits and veggies. I am not sure if giving up any of those things caused anything else to happen but you just never know. And what do you know...that first round worked....hence Olivia. We did not expect it at all and even at that point I felt like giving up. I became ok at some point with not having children because I was satisfied with my life and what we had been blessed with. Did I deep down give up? Absolutely not but I didn't want my inability to get pregnant to interfere with my life and went on living day in and day out.
But my point being it is a journey and sometimes a painful one. Sometimes you feel people don't understand what you are going through. It is not only a mental game but a physical one. The poking and prodding is bad enough but it is the mental part that really beats you up. You are thinking all the time about- Am I pregnant? Why is that person so lucky? What is wrong with me? Why can't I just have a baby? At times you feel like a failure and nothing people can do or say will make the situation any better. It is exhausting and a lot of time you don't want to talk about it because talking to one more person makes one more person who is hoping that something will happen for you.
It is that hope and leap of faith that kept us going. Even in the darkest hours and the saddest moments that hope is what kept us going. It is when people think having a baby is so easy- well for some of us it is not. I have learned a lot these past few years. I have learned how to be strong and put on a brave face when you are crumbling inside. I have learned that sometimes when you lose your faith that sometimes a light will shine so you can find it. Most of all I have learned patience. I patiently waited for something good to happen. God can only give you so much to burden at a time and I knew he had a plan for us.
To my friends who have opened up and shared with me over the past few years I thank you. I thank you for being there to listen and share our stories. I feel blessed to help others that are still patiently waiting for something to happen. But most of all this is to help others who are struggling with this inside and give you a little hope that if you take a leap of faith something will happen.
Monday, June 27, 2011
Tummy Time is Fun
Olivia went back to the pediatrician today and all was fine. She will go back for her 4 month check up at the end of July.
Here are some pictures from tummy time today. She really can lift her head and scoot around.
Mommy's try at an artistic shot.
Here are some pictures from tummy time today. She really can lift her head and scoot around.
Mommy's try at an artistic shot.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Sitting at the table
Today during breakfast I sat in my high chair while mommy and daddy had their good Sunday breakfast. It is not fair that they get to eat eggs and sausage while I have formula. I know someday soon I will get to have some solids. I just have to be patient. Mommy and daddy want me to like my high chair so I practiced again. I kinda like it. Today I finally put my hand on the tray part- that was a big step!
Here I am practicing and trying to figure out this high chair thing!
Here I am practicing and trying to figure out this high chair thing!
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