Have I given up? Being a Family of 3

I have gotten this question and No more babies? in the past few weeks after posting baby items for sale.  It is not something that you shout out loud or wear on your shirt.  In fact, it is at times painful, more painful than ripping off a band-aid.  At times it is hard to talk about and even write about. I have been pretty proud of myself for not crying the past few times I told someone.  It is difficult when you really want something to be and it just can't.  But let me rephrase it...given up...no...let go...yes.

When you are constantly consumed with a struggle like getting pregnant it gets to a point where it is unhealthy and all consuming.  Plus with the genetic factors of us both being carriers of Cystic Fibrosis, and my problems with getting pregnant, the struggle outweighed the opportunities.  If we were millionaires, life could be different with choices of IVF with genetic embryo testing...but even that isn't a guarantee or like everyone suggests...adopt! Adopting is more than going to a grocery store and picking a kid off the shelf..it doesn't work that way.  All that being said...we are going to be staying a family of 3.

As painful as it is at times, there are many blessings in all of this.  God's plan is for us to be a family of 3 and enjoy the life he has planned for us.  We are truly blessed to have Olivia and she is such a funny and spunky little girl.

So right now let go with me like this dandelion, who seeds will blow away to grow into a new flower.  Life goes on and I know it will be ok as hard as it is to say and feel, but I need to trust this journey and season of life.

For Olivia one day... we are truly blessed to have you in our life.  We love you to the moon and back!

And on a funny note..

Our family of 3....so blessed!